Growing up with psychiatrists as parents gave me expose to
the world of mental health and neuroscience, so I have always had it in the
back of my mind that I would explore that field of study. Medicine has also
been something I have wanted to pursue. And so, since coming to Duke, I have
had an interest in majoring in Neuroscience and taking premed courses, and
everything I have done at Duke has solidified my desire to pursue these courses
of study (or at least have done nothing to deter it). I took the right classes,
and they piqued my interest. I got involved in extracurriculars that either
interested me or took up too much of my time (i.e. swimming on the Varsity
Team) to give me time to explore other interests let alone breathe. This summer
has been the first time since coming to college or even in my life in general
in which I have immersed myself and dedicated my time to something that didn’t
directly relate to my presumed interests or supposed career path.
However, these past few weeks, I
have become immersed in a completely unsuspected world that I would never have
experienced if I hadn’t applied to DukeEngage in Miami. As I mentioned in my
last blog, working with Martin at CCLS led me to stumble into the art of grant
writing —in particular the beast that is federal grant writing. This is
something with which I never anticipated becoming familiar, and when I was
assigned to this task, I was apprehensive.
While this work has been outside of
my comfort zone, especially in the beginning, I have realized that I actually
do like it. It requires a meticulous and careful eye to parse out the exact
words to convey the required meaning and level of precision. It truly is an
art—one at which Martin is incredibly skilled, and I feel lucky to have learned
about it through his mentorship.
I hadn’t thought about this work as
anything more than a service to help CCLS gain important funding—that is until the
CEO of CCLS engaged me in a conversation about what I wanted to do as a career.
This conversation started out under the pretense that Martin would have to
retire eventually, and that CCLS might be interested in a young graduate to
start at an entry level for his position. To this, I apologetically mentioned
my desire to pursue medicine, but made sure to say that I was open to other
career paths. And until that moment, I didn’t consider that I might be. For the
first time, I thought what it would be like to pursue something other than the
path I had been tentatively set on since coming to college. It made me remember
the part of myself that I had been neglecting—the part that loves to write and to
find the nuances in language. The part that loves to read and even considered
majoring in Literature or English. I don’t know if I will change my major or
career interests, but I am grateful that I have been given the opportunity to
explore and remember parts of me that I had forgotten to remember.
This summer has also made me feel incredibly
lucky in another sense; it has given me the opportunity to live in the moment. Since
coming to Duke, I have mostly worked toward goals. The Neuroscience classes I have
taken were for the goal of obtaining a major in a field of interest and
passion, the science classes were for the goal of preparing for med school, the
endless hours of swim practice for the goal of a far off and unreachable
competition, and so on. As I have told family and friends about the immigration
work I have done for this second part of my summer, I have been told several
times that I am lucky to be living and getting direct exposure to the problems
our country is facing right now. I am currently doing research for a grant to
help represent undocumented alien children—the same ones who faces haunt the
news and journal articles. I have no other goal than to do the work of the day
and do it well, to live in the moment; because the service I am immersed in is
directly tied today, and that is so refreshing. Immersing myself in issues that
do not immediately impact my life or my defined interests is a wonderfully new
release.
I remember sitting outside our
apartment in the first week of this program wondering if I made the right
choice in doing this program. It seemed to diverge from everything else I had previously
been involved in, and I was anxious that I would regret it. At the summer’s
close, I know that Miami was the refreshing dive into real life and out of my
own defined life path—a shock that I desperately needed.
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